My Essence

What is my true essence, I asked, and this is the card that showed up as the answer.
I am so passionate about Love, and was not totally surprised to see it was a whole heart card.
So, I asked the same question the next day. Guess what? out of a deck of cards, I pulled the same card again.
Now I paid attention, and what does this really mean to me, being a whole heart?

This card became a meditation for me. I meditated on what truth this image revealed to me, and found out how much resistance I have had to seeing my truest essence, Love. I talk about it with passion, I share it with my presence in my work, I feel it in my heart, and many let me know how I express this essence of Love in my actions.

Yes, after all these findings and confirmations, I still notice a resistance to claim that "I am Love".
Where does this resistance come from? If I am Love, why can't I say it with certainty, clarity, and ownership?
It's not just because a card tells me so, I see that my life is a reflection of the whole heart love I express to others with my actions, it's my nature and I can't change that. I have so much proof in my life being kind and loving most of the time, that it's undeniable.

This card also reminds me of a question I was contemplating about my teaching, and this was my answer.
- Expressing with Heart my experience is my teaching. -

Without a doubt, my mind surrenders to my heart's knowing that - Love is my true essence!

Gratitude

GRATITUDE I feel today for all that LIFE IS!

Life is Kind

My experience of a stressful moment was when I resisted reality happening in the moment. As I opened to seeing what it was pointing towards I found my inner freedom and only then life became much kinder.
Loving what is the place of peace and freedom.

Living Life As It Is -- Not As I Wish It Would Be

As a child my parents always hoped for a better future, one that would give them freedom, and a better lifestyle for their children with the freedom they so desired for themselves.

I had to leave my country of birth, Cuba, at the age of eight because my parents feared the repression of the existing government and hoped for a better future. It was a time of much uncertainty, fear, and courage for my parents having to leave all that they knew for a new beginning in the other side of the world, Madrid, Spain, where we lived for two years before getting a visa to the U.S.


During this early part of my life I learned to let go of what's known, trust that I'm always supported wherever I am, that family and home is wherever I am. To leave everything I knew became something natural for me. I learned how to detach from that which I thought was mine. Also, leave "my family" of origin not knowing if I'd ever see them again to discover that family is everywhere. Family is not just those of blood, but it's also those that welcome you in their home as their own family too.


Since childhood my horizons expanded. I had no place to call my country, and I began to see life as it was, not as I wished it would be. I surrendered to where my parents decided for us to live, and noticed how life would support us wherever we where living at the moment. A beautiful family waited for us in Madrid taking us in their home until we rented our own. The church provided clothing and life began to unfold with much support in a far away land that I then called home.


All these experiences led me to feel certain that no matter where I went life would support me in the most amazing ways, way beyond my expectations. I now find myself naturally living life as it is, and knowing with excitement that life always shows me clearly the way. I find that there's a natural order in life's movement. I always want to see the Truth of life's expression in this moment, and not what I wish it would be.


I learned to see reality without the illusions of wishful thinking, an apparent world of thoughts and beliefs. Seeing life as it is, and not what I wish it to be is what I call being at home with peace.